i stayed up till 8am, working on baby's birthday surprise.
as i was cutting, pasting, twirling, wrapping... i had a mini internal conversation with myself.
my tired mind wondered... 'woah. issit worth it man!' and my heart replied, 'of course it is, silly. hang in there!'

i remember that particular incident when baby called me at 7am to say he's outside the door with breakfast.
and i was stunned, not because i was surprised by his act, but rather, because i wasn't at home to open the door for him.

i had gone out, earlir, at goddamn 3am to some other guy's house, to attend a stupid party, and i had lied to baby about it.
and at that moment, i knew i my lie had been exposed.

as i rushed home in a cab, almost in tears, i realised baby had swtiched off his phone, and wasn't responding to my messages which attempted to explain the situation.
when i flung open the door to my bedroom, i saw an empty bed, no baby lying on it, and a box of nasi lemak and lime juice waiting for me.

mum had let him in, and he had left upon seeing an empty room... upon seeing utter disappointment in his gf.
at that moment i felt shattered.
all this while i had something good right before my eyes, yet i left all that for something else that did not really matter, and i was wondering why must it always be that everything only becomes so clear, when one is on the verge of losing that something that has always been there... that something, whose importance never gets noticed before, until it is gone.
thankfully for me, i was given a second chance, and i've been treasuring it ever since.

i used to think it was important to always 'hang out' with friends...
'hang out' as in, chill at nice places, have crazy clubbing nights out, movies, suppers, parties etc.
but lately i feel that i've become simpler.
playing silly computer games, slacking around at home with baby, taking a short drives out, exploring the neighbourhood for food, and... experiencing the joy of satisfying our hunger in the middle of an extremely lazy night by ordering McDelivery...
sounds like everything revolves around food and laziness. hahas.

today we went exploring around baby's new neighbourhood, thomson.
i tasted the worst-tasting laksa ever, and he tasted the worst-tasting ba chor mee ever.
im not the sort of person who takes 2 spoonfuls of something, finds it not nice, and then just leaves the whole bowl aside and order something else.(baby is though)
i always try to at least eat till im no longer hungry, so that i fulfil my primary purpose of purchasing a food item. (then no need to spend $ to order an additional bowl wat... lol)
however, the laksa was so bad that i left like 75% of it, and proceeded to takeaway prata for dinner instead.
thankfully, the prata in thomson is thumbs up!
the Cheese Prata shop near NUS is -_-. it is so dry and....i dunno... 'dead'?
haha yea funny choice of words there, but the mushroom cheese prata from thomson, really seems like its oozing with...life! u poke your fork in, and thick, creamy, warm cheese practically flows out! ooooooo
speaking of which, i still have some leftover prata from dinner, which i feel like reheating and eating now! but...baby's kitchen is in the basement... and he's asleep... and his family's asleep... and im scared =x
should i just starve?
but it's hard, cuz im chatting with steph on msn, and we're on the topic of food!


*me. says:
i heard chinese food in ang moh countries r actually v expensive rite?
*me. says:
how much dussit cost over there?
Right here in UB says:
erm... like my vegs and shrimp rice... around $4 usd.
Right here in UB says:
but my friend had mixed vegs (lots of meat though) rice and it costs like $7 usd. ex!!!!

wow... people are paying that much for what we know as 'economical rice' in singapore. how ironic. haha.
well, im thankful that 'cai fan' costs only about $3 to $5 in singapore, as i pretty much enjoy having it. simple, nice, good enough.
but im looking forward to having something not-so-simple...crab!!! for baby's birthday... yumx :)

sending Qi off at the airport tomorrow, or should i say later today, since it's aleady 4am =x

This is the long goodbye...

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