its funny how queenie and lena keep saying my bf is good.
and how the jiemeis also say that they like him.

when my gfs praise my bf, i somehow feel that they are being fooled by the 'mask' which veils his true self.
cuz he portrays a decent, gentlemanly, man of few words kinda image 'in public', but when we're at home... OMG... he can behave like a child luh!
like, take my hands/even legs n just...shake...?! etc
and how can i leave out the fact that he's so disgusting when i try to wake him up and he refuses to listen/even shows me attitude n glare at me etc etc...ARGHS
i really dislike the fact that hes extremely lazy. i mean im lazy myself, but i dont like my partner to b lazy as well! cuz that means we're juz gonna stay together and...rot together! hmm and get fat together. -_-

its funny cuz i just emailed a blogshop owner to inform her of my payment.
n i told her, since my bf helped me transfer, i couldnt take a snapshot of the receipt, and tt i could only provide her with details like, referance number, time, location, date of transfer etc etc. (kinda worried cuz alot of blogshops now require buyers to take a photo of the atm transfer receipt and email it to them, to prevent fraud)
and little did i expect her reply to be 'your bf is so sweet'
*stunned*

it was then that i felt kinda guilty, cuz before that, i was just having a mini quarrel w baby on msn.
me complainig about stuffs.
then this happened, and kinda reminded me that, hey... i should stop bein so demanding... and that my bf is in fact v nice to me...
and it also reminded me about the stuff that baby had done for me... how he took care of me on past occasions etc...
and it suddenly struck me... like y do i go compare myself to other girlfriends, and make myself envious of other people, when actually iv got something good myself...
i feel that im already considered rather fortunate...
and i think about what i have done for baby... and i come to the conclusion...
not much indeed. but baby has never complained about that before.

so yea, i guess in life, its easy to take *alot* of things for granted,
especially loved ones, parents, family members, friends etc (ironically its usually the people who r the closest to u!)
and sometimes we need little incidents here n there to remind us about the things in life which really matter... and that we should count our blessings...

after my exams i'll work abit more, and treat my parents to a nice meal. i mean, my parents are always eating 'simple' stuff... i wanna pamper them, take care of them, just like how they've always wanted to give me the best when i was young...
like, being super protective, always insisting on fetchin me to and from school (at that time i really wished they'd juz let me go home myself cuz i wanted to feel BIG n cool.), signing me up for ballet lessons, tuitions etc etc.
i really wish i was... rich... cuz i wanna make my parents happy... let them lead a comfortable life...
its so cliche yea? like everyone says that, every child in tv dramas say that...
but i guess thats one of the *few* things thats beautiful about us humans...we have feelings...and love... (well of course im aware not everyone is like this -_-)

sometimes when im walkin around on the streets and i spot something nice, in my heart i think to myself, i wish i could get that for mum!
but i cant afford it -_-

AHHHHH PLEASE MAKE ME RICHHHHH!!!
AHHHHH PLEASE MAKE ME RICHHHHH!!!
AHHHHH PLEASE MAKE ME RICHHHHH!!!
AHHHHH PLEASE MAKE ME RICHHHHH!!!

once again this post is super super random.
guess im really bored out by staying at home *trying* to study.
countdown to end of exams: 1 more paper, 7 more days!