Stop bugging me you bitch. annoying the hell outta me.

which bitch? some bitch who went to a birthday party, and told a stranger (who knew me) that i'm a slut, and that i fuck around.

wow, so daring to make such comments uh?

this same bitch denied everything when i confronted her, and bugged me everyday to remove her photos from my blog. what happened to those guts?

how did i get to know about this? unfortunately for her, the friend whom she bitched about me to, came to tell me about everythin she said.

apparently my friend was just trying to make conversation, so he casually asked her if she knew me, as she mentioned she was from DHS, and my friend knew that i was from that school too.

so she replied, 'yes she is a slut and she sleeps around!'

whoa whoa. this bitch happens to be my sec 1/2 ex-classmate, whom i remember being nice to. no bad blood between us at all.

when i told common friends about this matter, they all went 'HUH? ******(her name) ?! i can't believe it?!'

why this kinda response? cuz she seemED like the innocent, oblivious, mind-your-own-business, NICE sort...in the past...

but well, 2 lessons learnt: 1. people change, 2. do not judge a book by is cover. won't know what a person's thinkng inside ya?

ok anyway, y am i so agitated?

i mean, quite DUH rite? simply cuz i do NOT fuck around.

cmon, u're teling me you won't get angry if you get accused, or when you hear someone spreading SUCH a rumour about u out there?

if u say, camy is ugly. i don't care. it's ur opinion, and opinions are subjective.

but when u say 'camy sleeps around', it's a factual statement!

and people will probably think 'oh, camy's ex-classmate says she sleeps around! it's someone who knows camy personally, so it's probably true!'

and then that's how rumours spread from 1 to another, and seem to appear so true.

wah, if i allow her to carry on what she's doing, then what's gonna happen to my reputation.

y am i so agitated?

cuz i feel that this sounds so lame.

i broke contact with this bitch ever since we graduated from sec2 and went to separate classes in upper sec.

so is she tryin to imply that i was fucking around, ever since sec1/2, since that was the time she was actually in my social circle?

cmon. u believe that shit?

or mayb what she meant was that, recently she heard ppl saying that i am the sort who fuck around. so? just because you hear something, you go spread it around without verifying its accuracy? how irresponsible is that? n cmon uni student, i dun suppose you're that dumb to believe everything you hear from other ppl? do u have the proof to show that i sleep around?

you see, people have the guts to say anything they want or like, because they think that the person whom they are talking about, will not know about what they have said.

its just like internet forums/blog tagboards. people write all sort of nasty stuff to slam blog authors, cuz they have an annonymous identity to hide behind. u think these people will dare to say those nasty stuff to the face of their targets? seriously doubt so.

when discussing why the hell this bitch would wanna say such stuff about me, most of my friends came to the conclusion that, judging by her style from photos, she doesn't seem to be the sort who has had many boyfriends (i personlly don't even know if she has had any before =x) hence most probably she has never had sex before, and therefore she has something against other people whom she thinks, has had sex. (??) i dunno man.

when confronted, she conveniently said:

-i never said such stuff about you

-i don't know the friend who told you i said so

-i think your friend is trying to set me up

seriously. lol. are u askin for a tight slap?

why, why, why would my friend wanna set YOU up? like, of all people, why YOU?! why not someone else, like pamela, or jean, or stanley, why YOU?

no reason for doing so, because:

-we're not even close to each other, so if my friend had an intention of ruining friendships, he should have chosen someone else.

-YOU are not a popular/famous figure that anyone would take notice of, so my friend would most likely not know of your very existence, UNLESS he indeed met u at a party, and conversed with you.

-as mentioned previously, u're not famous in any way, such that my friend would be jealous (?) of you, and hence wanna get you into trouble.

so in conclusion, if you've got the guts to say that i fuck around, please do yourself a favour to at least admit that you did it, and juz apologize, instead of trying so desperately to lie your way out of trouble, and in the process make yourself look so stupid and pathetic.

do u think this post sounds very mean? no, im not bitching, i'm juz writing out what i feel in my heart. i'd never say anything nasty about this girl, if not for what she'd done. at least i have the courtesy to not mention her name at all throughout my post. so yea, if u're reading this, DON'T bug me to remove my post because there is no indication that i'm talking about you. This is my blog and i write whatever i want, just like how you said whatever you liked about me. At least i'm openly airing my thoughts, unlike you, swallowing your words - coward.

ABOUT TIME i moved on to more meaningful things!

recently iv been SO busy. REALLY busy.

somehow there seems to be so many events going on in september... and i've kinda been workin/going for castings a few times every week!

not to mention school. 8am lecture? 5 day week? seriously killin me!

those who know me well will probably say, 'aiya, u confirm skip 8am lecture luh!'

yea if i had a choice i would! but i kena complained for not attending the 1st 3 lectures... u see, the class's so small that the lecturer can tell who's here and who's not. <- Photography module. i hate it! although there's no exam at the end of the year, the workload is crazy!

i left NUS 3 hours ago at 1030pm, cuz i was busy snapping photos of people, for this week's assignment. sigh. the assignment's so silly lar. make us snap pics of students. imagine how awkward/pissed off they feel, being photographed by a stranger, and not knowing where the pics are gonna appear (on a slideshow presentation, and shown to a class of 25 people HAHA) i also feel paiseh snapping them without their consent can. -_-

apart from school and work, my birthday also has to fall on his month! how great. -_-

i will update in another post, on how it all went. so far so good :)

party's comin up next week. kinda excited, but the planning kinda sux!

so right now i'm busy with bday planning, assignments, a few castings and work...

and then right after the bday party's done, it's gonna be time for F1 - which means a few days of work lined up all in a row.

whee prepare to fall ill due to fatigue~!

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5:05 AM

i stayed up till 8am, working on baby's birthday surprise.
as i was cutting, pasting, twirling, wrapping... i had a mini internal conversation with myself.
my tired mind wondered... 'woah. issit worth it man!' and my heart replied, 'of course it is, silly. hang in there!'

i remember that particular incident when baby called me at 7am to say he's outside the door with breakfast.
and i was stunned, not because i was surprised by his act, but rather, because i wasn't at home to open the door for him.

i had gone out, earlir, at goddamn 3am to some other guy's house, to attend a stupid party, and i had lied to baby about it.
and at that moment, i knew i my lie had been exposed.

as i rushed home in a cab, almost in tears, i realised baby had swtiched off his phone, and wasn't responding to my messages which attempted to explain the situation.
when i flung open the door to my bedroom, i saw an empty bed, no baby lying on it, and a box of nasi lemak and lime juice waiting for me.

mum had let him in, and he had left upon seeing an empty room... upon seeing utter disappointment in his gf.
at that moment i felt shattered.
all this while i had something good right before my eyes, yet i left all that for something else that did not really matter, and i was wondering why must it always be that everything only becomes so clear, when one is on the verge of losing that something that has always been there... that something, whose importance never gets noticed before, until it is gone.
thankfully for me, i was given a second chance, and i've been treasuring it ever since.

i used to think it was important to always 'hang out' with friends...
'hang out' as in, chill at nice places, have crazy clubbing nights out, movies, suppers, parties etc.
but lately i feel that i've become simpler.
playing silly computer games, slacking around at home with baby, taking a short drives out, exploring the neighbourhood for food, and... experiencing the joy of satisfying our hunger in the middle of an extremely lazy night by ordering McDelivery...
sounds like everything revolves around food and laziness. hahas.

today we went exploring around baby's new neighbourhood, thomson.
i tasted the worst-tasting laksa ever, and he tasted the worst-tasting ba chor mee ever.
im not the sort of person who takes 2 spoonfuls of something, finds it not nice, and then just leaves the whole bowl aside and order something else.(baby is though)
i always try to at least eat till im no longer hungry, so that i fulfil my primary purpose of purchasing a food item. (then no need to spend $ to order an additional bowl wat... lol)
however, the laksa was so bad that i left like 75% of it, and proceeded to takeaway prata for dinner instead.
thankfully, the prata in thomson is thumbs up!
the Cheese Prata shop near NUS is -_-. it is so dry and....i dunno... 'dead'?
haha yea funny choice of words there, but the mushroom cheese prata from thomson, really seems like its oozing with...life! u poke your fork in, and thick, creamy, warm cheese practically flows out! ooooooo
speaking of which, i still have some leftover prata from dinner, which i feel like reheating and eating now! but...baby's kitchen is in the basement... and he's asleep... and his family's asleep... and im scared =x
should i just starve?
but it's hard, cuz im chatting with steph on msn, and we're on the topic of food!


*me. says:
i heard chinese food in ang moh countries r actually v expensive rite?
*me. says:
how much dussit cost over there?
Right here in UB says:
erm... like my vegs and shrimp rice... around $4 usd.
Right here in UB says:
but my friend had mixed vegs (lots of meat though) rice and it costs like $7 usd. ex!!!!

wow... people are paying that much for what we know as 'economical rice' in singapore. how ironic. haha.
well, im thankful that 'cai fan' costs only about $3 to $5 in singapore, as i pretty much enjoy having it. simple, nice, good enough.
but im looking forward to having something not-so-simple...crab!!! for baby's birthday... yumx :)

sending Qi off at the airport tomorrow, or should i say later today, since it's aleady 4am =x

This is the long goodbye...

11:21 AM

hey im back to blogging again, because there are just too many precious moments that i can't afford to lose, but risk losing by just leaving them somewhere inside my memory!

this time round however, it's gonna be very privte, low-key, just words... no photos, no camwhoring...

xx vs dy blog wars/quarreling shitz/flaming... no. leave me outta them.

for the past few months, iv been truly happy, very happy.

genting, bangkok...just relaxing and having fun, casting all troubles away.

i have to thank my baby for bringing me around, providing for me, becoming a more thoughtful and sensitive boyfriend.

when i asked, 'do u think u are treating me better nowadays?'

he replied, 'hmmm? perhaps? but more or less the same though... iv always been nice to u wat.'

baby you might not feel that you have changed drastically, but to me, i see it all so clearly, the small things. cuz they matter to me.

i am finally contented. i can finally think of myself as one of those 'fortunate girlfriends'.

it's been close to 9months. im amazed. to be truthful, i never quite expected this relationship to last. but now, i feel that our relationship has progressed into a new phase, a higher level.

couple of times, i almost ruined it, beause of stupid temptations. but come to think of it, if it weren't cuz of the existence of these silly happenings, i wouldnt have come to see what's important/worthy to hold on to, and what's not.

so i thank all the characters/obstacles that once came between our relationship, for making our bond stronger in the end.

baby's birthday is approaching!

and we both agreed that i shall just sponsor his tattoo, since he's a VERY choosy person, and there will be a high possibility that i might buy something he dislikes, if i were to go shopping for a birthday gift on my own.

it's not that im a lousy girlfriend and don't understand his tastes well, but he is really very difficult to please! haha.

then again, i admit i havent been a good girlfriend either. iv never really bought my bf anything for the past 9 months, except for...a heart shaped slice of strawberry cake (which he didnt like), a pen modeled after a biscuit-stick (which i forced him to use for school), random samples from my CLEO goodie bag, a pair of sunglasses that i found..yikes, simpsons boxers, a bedside lamp which costs $5... thats about it! gosh, my poor boyfriend =x

i admit, i did not invest my 100% in the relationship, majority of the time. but now, things are different.

in 4 days' time, he's gonna be in for a surprise. i've got it all planned. now iv just gotta get my lazy ass off to WORK!

im excited bout it :)

im so happy cuz Qi is back in sg! vacation for a month.

the only once when all 4 of us were gathered together, was when we went for eyebrow trimming + chillout dinner... then for subsequent meetings, 1 of us was always absent. so sad.

anyhows, there was, dinner at bugis, lingerie browsing, st james, tasty hot dogs, supper at changi village, and the adorable kittens... i missed out on the Top One KTV session! arghs :(

don't u miss my voice Qi? hahas.

in what seems like a twinkle of an eye, Qi's heading back to LA in 2 days' time :(

i will miss u girl... it's gonna be a long 9mths... but hey, there's nothing that our sisterhood can't conquer yea? :)

speaking of leaving, steph recently left us for studies as well.

so now, 2 of my 4-man-cliques are left with only 3 men. sigh.

although i havent known steph for a very long time, and although i first got to know her through a friend during a casual clubbing session, i feel that we really do have an amazing chemistry, and i just feel so comfortable sharing my thoughts and secrets with her... (i feel comfortable french-kissin her as well! lol)

together, olivia, juliet, steph and i never fail to have FUN, be it the usual crazy clubbing nights, or simple dinners/catch up sessions, and even hitting the beach!

i can't wait for u to return in 4 months time so we can resume our 4-man girly outings.

another person who has already left... is rubin.

the person... who made me fall in love with salmon mentaiyaki

... who made me fall in love with dan ryan's chilli cup and sauteed mushrooms

... who made me read a novel out of my own accord, after god-knows-how-many-years of not reading storybooks

the person who feel utterly disgusted whenever i share my pains about menstrual cramps and periods. and it shows on his facial expression. damn funny.

oh rubs, i miss u too.

sometimes i wonder, why must it be my dearest friends who have to leave, and not other people? y not that certain mr E who has a hobby of lying and crashing other ppls' cars? y can't horrible people like these leave/disappear, like poof. grr. fuckers.

but o well, there's really alot more to life than being upset with insignificant/unimportant people, agree? agreed.

im off to supper with my neighbour-cum-ex-TJ-climbing-buddy, jee dog. whee!

Let's get FaT!!!

8:06 AM