was surfing youtube for inspiration for an advertisement for Tiger Beer, and i came across this....



Oh dear, that's really sad...
imagine that happening to yourself...
how would you react???
=x
scary scary...
finding out that your other half is cheating on yo is already bad enough,
but witnessing everything with your own eyes...
can't imagine that!

found this as well:



gawd, i find it SO insulting and offensive (as a female)
-_-

last but not least (or rather, saving the best for the last)
this is fckin funny ;p



and erm, despite watching vids after vids,
i STILL haven't got any inspiration or ideas for the ad
HELP!

and did i mention that my biological clock is totally screwed up?
i woke up at 9pm today 0_o

iv been sleeping at ridiculous timings like, 9am, 12noon...
and waking up after 3pm...

save me save me

the thing about tuesdays is that i always have project meeting at 10am, followed by a break from 12 - 6, until my 3125 tutorial.
@!$#%**(^!@#$

but the most recent tuesday was fine.
had fun at proj meeting, played a freaky game www.hotel626.com with my mates and i screamed when the ghost popped up. and we were like seated along a walkway. -_-
then attended a talk by Kumar. initially i only went because attendance was to be taken.
but i turned out to enjoy the session alot. he is so goddam funny, yet honest as well. it was a fun and motivating session.
then i headed to vivo for an appointmet, and before that, i decided to grab a casual snack...perhaps a plate of Sushi or two...
however, it turned out to become a sushi buffet, as i simply could not resist it when the waiter said 'there's buffet from 3-6pm'
n its like only $13.90 for students, how worthwhile!
u enjoy a complimentary red plate dish, a bowl of seaweed udon, and mochi for dessert, on top of the unlimited plates of sushi u can grab! ahh~



i did not really eat alot luh rite?
did not even take the red plate dish.
cuz my favourites are the 'cheap' kinds of sushi like, the egg, crabstick etc...haha
and i usually order more of the non-sushi items like fried scallops + mayo, fried crabsticks, fried potato, CHA SOBA etc...
i really luv eating at sushi restaurants, cuz i like the atmosphere, like seeing the plates move around haha.

oh by the way i had the buffet with "myself".
i was sitting by a full-length window at the corner, enjoying the peace and serenity of the quiet place, and thinking of lots of stuff.
thinking of how i've changed so drastically, thinking of the wrong things i've done, thinking of people who are constantly at the back of my mind, but whom i fail to let them know that, 'you're important to me'...
life is so hectic that i overlook and fail to appreciate or treasure the things that matter, and its only during times like this, when u get to sit down alone and reflect, that u get reminded of what life SHOULD really be about, and decide to put in effort to do something about it...
i realised also, that i need to CALM DOWN. all the stress in my life lately, - work, never-ending deadlines etc, have made me such a tensed and easily-agitated person.
i'm sure that can be seen, from the tone and mood of some of my previous posts.
but i really do not know how to relax, when i've got 2 very very tight major project deadlines, apart from 2 other smaller scale ones, approaching me altogether.
and i have to work. how can i not? it's no longer about getting some extra pocket money to finance my online shopping (arghs), but i've now got responsibilities, and instalments to pay every month?
regret getting the car, but i really eally really have to thank baby for paying for all maintenance and petrol costs...
I FEEL STRESSED




Work, at the float at marina bay, some Singapore Indulge thingy...?
it was a very 'cultural' kinda event, with people in ethnic costumes, stilt-walkers etc etc, and it was very colourful and vibrant... nice~
this is a hat, made of very delicious, super-sweet cakes!

October is such a quiet month...
friends, ppl, whoever, i need more jobs pls pls!
also, im thinking of alternative ways of earning $
and what im gonna do is to sell my wardrobe. yup, majority are like unworn-n-i-doubt-i-will-wear, so might as well.
hoping to check out the response, and get used to the whole mailing thing, then consider setting up a real online shop...
we'll see, im thankful i have the full support from baby and friends.

last but not least, i can't wait for Brina's birthday party on Saturday, and of course, HALLOWEEN! woots!
will be checking out the costume shop soon!

last afternoon at about 2pm, baby tried waking me up to go out...
but i was so tired, i said, y not go out in the evening instead, and i fell back asleep.
and it all happened during my deep sleep...
right now im thinking, if i had just woken up, gone out... nothin would have happened at all.
but i guess God has a way of making it such that, you cant hide something from someone forever. someday, ur secrets will be revealed.
and baby found out my secret while i was fast asleep.

the next thing i knew, i was being driven back home.
it was the most painful journey...
in my mind i was thinking... this is the last time i will be sitting in the car, with baby by my side...
while i was leaving his house, as i walked down the staircase, opened the sliding door and heard the mini alarm sound, saw the gate opening... all i could think of was... it's the last time im gonna see these, last time im gonna be here...
in the car, i wanted to look at baby, i wanted to take my last glimpses of him... i was afraid i might miss the way he looks, if i didnt grab the chance to see more of him when i still could... when he was still physically beside me... but... i felt ashamed to even look at him.
the journey was silent, with only the sound of the songs in our CD playing...
somehow this time, when i listened to the lyrics, they sounded especially depressing, and they seemed to be describing our situation and emotions even more than usual. the lyrics seemed to be talking to me.
i sat, hugging my belongings, mind filled with flashes of past memories, overcome with tears throughout the whole journey.

even though we've been together for close to 11 months, i sometimes still do not dare to gaze deep into baby's eyes or look at him for long. my heart will still skip a beat.
so i always snap photos of him while we're sitting opposite each other, waitin for food, or when he is in deep sleep, with his mouth hanging wide open etc.
occasionally when im bored while tavelling, id open my handphone picture folder, and look at these photos. they bring a smile to my face.
however last night, i was looking at these photos, but tears were flowing down my eyes instead.
little did i know that these photos will also serve another function - for me to be able to still look at baby, when he's gone, when he's no longer mine, when it's all over between us, when i'll no longer get a chance to see him in the flesh again.

y did it become this way?
we were supposed to go out, have the macaroni n cheese i was craving for, and have a great time...
i admit i only have myself to blame
but i felt angry at fate. i felt like i was being played by it.
why bring back something of the past, to haunt me right now, when things are so smooth-sailing between us?
it's unfair.
i daresay, for the past few months, iv really been a rather good girlfriend. and that we both are enjoying the simple, blissful life that we share together. it's such a pity to have it all ruined because of something which i did, so long ago. i dont even feel like it was 'ME' who did what i did back then... i've changed so much... i changed so much after realising that baby truly cares for me, and i have to treasure him and treat him well...

i know, because these are my feelings inside, but how do i tell it to baby, in words? there was so much in my mind, but i just couldnt translate my feelings into words, for i felt that, anything i attempted to say, would seem like such a desperate attempt to save my ass, i felt that had no right to request for another chance, i felt that my sin was so horrible that i deserved to just accept my sentence without grudging. that's why i silently obeyed, when baby said. 'Let's break up. i'll send you home.'

fortunately for me, baby is not the type of guy who'll ignore your calls etc when he's upset... he is willing to listen to explanations...
after a conversation on msn, he said he's confused, and that he'd have to think it through, and let me know of his final decision the following day.
i felt that i still had a chance, but i didnt have high hopes...
i couldn't sleep the entire night, played Audition for at least 10 hours i guess, all the way till 11am -_-
tried to call baby to wake him up for school, as well as ask him what's his decision, but he did not pick up my countless phone calls.
the uncertainty was killing me...

to quote our words during the msn conversation:

me:
but do u bear to let it all go? the times we spent watching dramas and tv shows together like old ladies, the times we order fastfood delivery and pig out, the times we sit beside each other and get lost in our own games in the virtual world, the times we talk and laugh about silly things...
it took us so much time and effort to build up the chemistry, and feel at total ease with each other... don't u find that it's a pity to let it all go cuz of a single incident that happened so long ago?

baby:
yes i will miss all that, and i find that it's a pity too. i can forgive what you did and understand why you did it, but next time when i look at you, i will be reminded of it. i'm not sure if i can do it.

me:
can we at least try?

baby:
but what's the point of getting back with a girl, if in the end we might just break up again?

even married couples break up and get divorced. even more so for boyfriends/girlfriends. nothing is really everlasting... it is not so much of the end result, but as long as a couple shared happy times during the period that they were together, to me, it's worth it, it's memorable. why force yourself to abandon the happiness that you enjoy now, just because you think that it will not last? ever since months ago when i promised you that i'd change, can you not admit that i'm really different? most of the time i'm at your place, you pick me up after school/work/wherever im at, and i don't even hav much time and contact with other people. my life has become entwined with yours, and that is the way i intend to keep it going, in future, if you decide to give us one...

fortunately for me, i have SCV to thank.
when i finally got through to him, baby said that he happened to watch 3 dramas which portrayed the idea that, what the current situation is now, and what happenes in future, is more important than what had happened in the past...
and he got influenced...

and here we are, back together again...
sigh. i admit this isn't the 1st time i've been blessed with another chance...
and, how lucky i am, to have a bf like baby...
i will definitely treasure the confidence and love baby has for me...
thank you dear...

Bree's dog :)
*love love*

HECTIC!


26th sep

11am - 6pm: Motorshow

6pm - 830pm: rush to baby's house to sleep

9pm - 4am: Amberlounge



27th sep

4am - 9am: rush home to bathe and sleep

11am - 6pm: Motorshow

6pm - 1030pm: rush to baby's house to sleep

11pm - 6am: Amberlounge



28th sep

6am - 9am: rush home to bathe and (hardly able to) sleep

11am - 6pm: Motorshow

6pm - 11pm: rush to baby's house to sleep (OVERSLEPT by a bit. excusable right? i mean, at this point of time, after 2 days of hardly sleepin, im already all drained!)

11pm: rushed down to work, but along the way, i turned to Capitol building to pick Eva up, as she couldnt get a taxi. for the past 2 days, the cab driver dropped me off at city hall mrt, and i had to walk all the way to millenia tower/conrad hotel, due to the stupid roadblocks. this night, however, me and Eva wanted to try stopping somewhere nearer to our destination save us the hassle of walking/half-running in high heels! however, the cab driver went round and round and round, tried his very best, but couldnt find a suitable place to stop, once again, due to stupid roadblocks everywhere!

12+pm: reached Amberlounge, got fired on the spot. wad the fuck? the stupid client didnt even bother to hear our explanation, and just fired us in like, 10 seconds? bloody bitch. the cab fare cost us $20+ lor. im pissed about being fired not because im hard up about working for her 1.5k-per-entrance-ticket stupid event, but because she intentionally waited for us to reach the place then fire us, rather than informing our agent earlier that we're fired and we need not bother to go down. yea i do agree and admit that its our fault for being late, YES YES, but i think the way she handled it was abit overboard? like surely there were alternative solutions? dock 2 hours off our salary? why go to such an extent of firing us? to think she was initially so friendly and warm, praising us for our good performance the past 2 nights etc... FAKE, all FAKE!

The client, Rachel Moroney was rumoured to fire a fellow female friend who was working for the event as well. Reason? This girl almost got raped, and was punched in the stomach when she resisted. Rather than protecting her girls and being a responsible client, Rachel fired her based on the grounds that she was creating a scene. not sure how true this is, but iv seen some rumours spreading around on the net, regarding this issue. Well, Rachel is a woman herself, and it is a shame that she does not defend the rights and honour of fellow females, and she seems to have a hobby of firing people? *rolls eyes* ah whatever. im just glad that the 3 hectic days are OVER OVER OVER!



What else took place over this span of time that i was MIA:



- Super Imports Night. worked for Sonax/Broquet


P.S this beautiful Nissan Skyline at MB Motors stole my heart! Unlike normal cars, it's matt black, just like a Batman car! ooowhheeeee~!! there were many many other beautiful cars like lamborghinis, lotus, etc etc, and also beautifully-decorated vehicles... and of course, the gorgeous import/local models!



I only worked because the night before the event at 5am, miyo asked me to replace her as she was not feeling well. Since i was free, i decided to help my friend out. However, at work (Friday), this girl who's sorta 'in charge', Jessica, asked me to work on Saturday as well. i said i couldnt, as i had to attend Yii Yin's birthday party at 6pm at HarbourFront. But Jessica was persistent. She pleaded with me to work, even if it was only a half-shift, from 12pm to 5pm. But i declined, because i really did not wanna rush about. Even after that, she KEPT ON pleading with me, using terms like 'help me out la', 'i got no more girls' etc etc. Soft-heartd as i am, i agreed reluctantly.

However, after thinking it through during work, i decided to tell her, after 1 hour, that i actually really really do not wanna work, and that i hope that she will not force me any further. Then she said, 'ehhh! u promised just now already leh! how can last minute back out de??!!' I mean like wtf, couldnt she see that i was super reluctant, and i agreed only because she wouldnt stop bugging me? and cmon, the reason i was working on Friday was because i was HELPING a friend, and the initial arrangment was for me to replace my friend for that ONE day only, im not OBLIGED to help you work for the remaining days! But she made it seem like i owed her. And i was unhappy about that, and i saw no point in reasoning with her because... honestly, she's like... aunty aunty pattern, dun-give-face type of person. So i talked to the client, when he happened to come into the storeroom at the same time that i was in there, resting. I told him " im really very sorry that im unable to help you out tomorrow, as i really have something on. but if ur really in need of someone, i can help you look for a girl' To my surprise, the client was cool, and wasn't desperate like Jessica at all. He said, sure, and handed me his namecard.

From what Jessica told me, even though she's 'in charge' of finding the girls, she ain't cutting any commission from their salary. So i thought it would be OK for me to recommend a girl directly to the client, since Jessica wouldnt be disadvantaged in any way, right? Furthermore i ain't cutting any commission myself either, just thinking of HELPING the client find a girl for his booth, sincerely. Heard from Huirong that Chanelle was interested in working for SIN, so i passed Huirong the client's number, and after that, the involved parties took over the planning/discussions. That was the end of my role, i felt good that i attempted to help someone, i felt good that work had ended, i went on with my own life.

However, few days after, i received a nasty phone call from Jessica. Apparently, the client decided to hire Chanelle to work. Good thing right? But Jessica said : " ehhhh why you go and intro client what 1.73m girl, client see already, sure wanna hire right? then you liddat hor, you spoil my plans leh! client see chanelle already then dun wanna hire my girls leh! " After i heard this, i immediately felt damn WTF.

firstly, your initial concern was that u had NO GIRL to work at the booth, that's y you begged me to work on Saturday, despite my countless declines. now, i helped u find a girl, and you are complaining that because of my girl, your client wont want YOUR GIRL????!!! so where did these 'YOUR GIRLS' SUDDENLY pop out from?

ok mayb you're pissed because the girl selected to work was not 'under' you, but recommended by me. but the whole point is, I DON'T STAND ANYTHING TO GAIN FROM RECOMMENDING THIS GIRL, and u TOLD ME, you weren't cutting any commission from your girls as well, so what's the issue here??!! it doesnt matter from whose side this girl came from, right? UNLESS u were lying that u didnt cut commission luh? cuz most likely u did, and u're pissed that u're unable to cut a share of Chanelle's salary? this is just my personal thought, might or might not be true, but, can anyone think of alternative reasons?

next, you claim that the client is your own personal friend. don't you wanna help your own friend find a girl for his booth? picture this - all other booths have tons of girls, Sonax/Broquet only has 2. Out of the 2 of us, only i was posing and taking photos, at least on the day i was working. Jessica was like... walking around... dunno what she was doing oso la. i asked her to pose together, she replied "I don't like to take photos leh, i prefer to promote the products" 0_0 i was abit stunned. but, oh well, i just did my job anyway, mind my own business.

anyway, Jessica called with the aim of scolding me for spoiling her 'plans' (i dunno what evil plan she has in her funny mind oso lar) but i REFUSED to be scolded, because in my heart i knew that my conscience was clear, i did not do anything to sabotage anyone, in fact all i wanted to do was HELP. i mean i could have just not bothered - told the boss i couldnt help him to work on satursday, then get the hell out of the place. But i decided to be nice and HELP him find a replacement, and i sincerely REGRET!

anyway i sounded very hostile on the phone and did not give her any chance to climb over my head. no way in hell. so she had no choice but to put down the phone. then guess what? remember Miyo, the friend whom i replaced initially? she called miyo to scold her! she said stuff like 'Why did u recommend *me* to replace you? she snatched my client you know?! why did u have to be sick on the day that you were supposed to work? you spoilt all my plans you know?!" blablabla and alot alot alot of crap. Miyo is nice and good-natured, and tolerated her nonsense <- and i feel angry about that! Miyo, Chanelle and I are equally pissed about this whole incident, and not to mention the many other girls who 'talked' about Jessica during casual chitchats. - shows how 'well-liked' she is uh.

seriously im not someone who will look for trouble. but guess what i heard AGAIN! miyo was supposed to work for Sonax/Broquet for Singapore Motorshow 2008. But she got cancelled, and Jessica told her that the reason was because IIIIIIIIIII snatched her spot away. WTF?! *rolls eyes until eyeballs wanna drop out* like COME ON, do your homework before attempting to tell lies and spread fake rumours to spoil my reputation? yes indeed i am working for Motorshow, but im not even working for Sonax/Broquet??!! How to 'snatch' Miyo's spot when im not even working for the same company?! Im working for Polygon, and my friend Madeleine was the one who recommended the job to me! GAWD. im just so pissed at being wrongly accused by a low-class aunty! i only got to find out about this when i happened to message Miyo on msn to chat. Imagine if i did not do so, and the misunderstanding was not cleared, miyo would forever think that i backstabbed her, snatched her job? our friendship would be ruined?! I seriously cannot believe how some people can be so evil! watch out for Karma bitch!

I know its a really long and annoying post but, just let me rant. im sure u can sense how angered i am!



Ok on to other things. Also worked for Richard Mille event at MOS, where Jacky Chan was present. but i aint a fan luh~ was more interested in the countless Lamborghinis etc parked outside...gosh...Lambos in all sorts of colours, an eye-opener *envioussss* many many girls worked, many familiar faces, really. job scope was just to party. oh guess who was working too? Jessica! and she was like...alone, ALONE walking around in the club, while everyone else were in cliques? need i say more... Anyway i had fun hanging with babes like Shu Min, Eva, Sarah, Lisa, Victoria, and the cute gang, Elaine Huirong Chanelle Miyake and more~more~... Joanne even dragged a group of us to go dance on the podium at like 3+am when there werent much people left, and we took off our heels to dance more comfortably! lol so unglam!!! ahh, it was fun :)


Ok last but not least, my birthday celebration :)

1 day before actual bday: baby picked me up from a casting, drove to Changi. i was kinda disheartened... why bring me to an ulu place to celebrate my bday. haha. but... in the end i was impressed and delighted!

There's this Changi Village Hotel just behind the row of coffeeshops, and trust me, it's quite posh despite being located in Changi Village. Baby signed up for a couple spa session at 'The Retreat'. We were led to the top floor of the hotel, into a beautiful massage-room with an attached balcony. at the balcony, there was a jacuzzi pool and an outdoor rainshower! whee!!! the view was not bad, overlooking a sea, but i dunno what sea? hahas. should be the one leading to Pulau Ubin? There was also chocolate fondue and marshmallows,banana, apple etc provided, by the pool side! We had fun splashing around for about 1 hour, before the masseurs came to provide us with heavenly, relaxing massage! i really loved it, but what a pity, it was so soothing that i fell asleep! geee wasted. haha. all in all, i really did not expect this, and i find it really special! $600+ for 2 people, for 3 hours, - and i have baby to thank for it. THANK YOU BABY!!! but the thing is, if i were to look for a spa package for myself, i would never choose such an expensive one, and i really think baby shouldnt have gone to the extent. i mean yea its amazing, for 3 hours...but after that, all u have left is...memories? =x id rather spend $600 on something tangible, that you can keep, and touch, and see, and admire... lol.