ktv tonight with jan n her friends...
turns out that bree's sis was among the group as well... what a small world!
recently its been more of chillout, ktv, nua at home...
clubbing's like totally outta my life already
whenever i go clubbing recently, i feel tired, n i realised i tend to keep wondering when my friends will decide that its time to go home... =x
i feel olllldddd~~~
or mayb im just not in the mood for it...
really stressed over studies... and $ issues...

went for my 1st jap language lecture today... and i was kinda totally lost? and the fckin textbooks cost me $60... had no choice but to buy them (very very reluctantly) cuz it was compulsory to do so.
i know i know $60 is not ALOT, but i juz feel pissed cuz im spending it on something that i dont want and hate. thats the thing. ew books ewww.
and im the sort who's too lazy to sell my used textbooks, unlike what most students do. 95% of my textbooks since yr 1, are still with me. i simply keep procrastinating semester after semester.
hmm... in a blink of an eye... school life's gonna finally come to an end...
and i don't know if i should feel happy or sad about it... i just find it really scary how time flies...
im afraid of changes that might come... and im afraid that things that im comfortable with now, might not remain the way they are...
but what can anyone do about things like these... life is full of uncertainty... thats why some feel better cuz they have e 'god' to turn to... and religion to guide them
but i dont.
right now im just... lost... i need someone, somehow, to enlighten me... i need to find out what i really want in life.
what am i going to do after i graduate?
im sure some can really tel that im super disturbed and stressed up this sem... im sure u can tel from the way im writing now! -__-"
for now, i just hope that everything goes well for my family, and baby of course. i'd be satisfied :)

also, iv been playing this game Left 4 Dead recently.
joleen was the one who first introduced it to me while we were gaming at the LAN shop... then baby and i downloaded it onto our comps and started playing at home...
i remember there was 1 night, we played for 4-5 hours till 6am...n i couldnt wake up for school the next day...arghs

upcoming...
- CNY, of course!
- i really have no clue what to do/buy for baby for V-day
- Alexis's wedding on V-day! (will be attending!) congrats!
- driving test (TP) on 2nd march! i must passsssss!